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[31 Jan 2004|08:33pm] |
I'm going on hiatus for a while until things get settled in my life. I'm sorry for putting you all on hold, and I'm doubly sorry for this being cross-posted on who knows how many journals.
Cya later guys.
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I can't believe that he's gone...He was fine last night...I talked to him last night...He can't be gone...
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[25 Dec 2003|09:12am] |
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Well, Merry Christmas to everyone out there who are sitting here reading updates like I am right now. So, thought I might tell everyone about my wonderful Christmas Eve antics, and I'm being very sarcastic.
I spent most of yesterday in a daze, feeling like a pile of bricks were on my chest, not the most comfortable thing. I've gotten used to it because I've been an asthmatic for most of my life. Well, last night things took a turn for the worst and I ended up in the Emergency Room, hyperventilating. I've never had that happen before, and it was not a fun experience. As I'm sitting here, I didn't end up dying, but I hope that never happens again.
In other news, I've been working on an art project for my brother's Christmas present. And although it won't be done in time (we all know this, I've been working on it right in front of him the whole time I've been here), dad got a new digital camera that I've had the honor of playing with. So, we get to show you some work in progress.
Kingdom Hearts is a video game that crosses Final Fantasy and Disney films, and is my brother's favorite game at the moment. Yay, here we go.
( KH Title Inked )
( Heartless Soldiers Inked )
( Ansem Inked )
( Dark Riku Inked )
( Sephiroth, the one winged angel Inked )
I know you can't see a lot of the detail in the later pictures, but I'll try to get close-ups later as more of the project is completed. Hope everyone has a good day.
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| The Epic is Complete |
[17 Dec 2003|09:48am] |
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I'm still trying to soak everything in that I watched this morning, and all I can say right now is 'wow.' Of course, I'm talking about Return of the King. Some nice person bought me a ticket to go since my friends from home all ditched me and went somewhere.
There will be no spoilers in this post since I know there are a ton of people who haven't seen it and would rather just not know about it. Yes, I can say it is a good film, easily in league with the others, but I'm still drifting back to The Two Towers as being my favorites out of the three. There are just some scenes that I wanted to groan at, but I'll go into those in another post later on. It was worth the wait.
Looks like I may not be moving home for Christmas, unfortunitly. Seems as though no one will buy my contract, and to buy it out myself will set me back $900 that I do not have. It would be more worth my while at this point to just stay and work my rear off and save up for May when I can go home and get out of here. Can't say I didn't try.
So, like usual, I've found myself in another bout of depression, and I don't know if being home for Christmas is going to help that out at all. The worst form of artist block, and it's hit me head on. What a mess.
Merry Christmas everyone, if I don't talk to you before then.
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[16 Nov 2003|10:59pm] |
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I did something really stupid tonight, and even though it seemed like nothing to me, I really hurt a friend's feelings badly, something that I would never want to happen, ever. The fact that it was over playing a game makes me feel even worse. I pride myself in the characters that I choose to play with, and the fact that this is what hurt this person, I really regret doing it now. They are the best player I've ever had the pleasure of playing with, and I wouldn't be where I am without them.
I don't know if they ever want to talk to me again, but I'm leaving this public as an apology to them. I know I screwed up, and if there's anything I can do...I just feel horrible, and I wish there were some way to get over this. :-\
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[11 Nov 2003|05:00pm] |
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I supposed I ought to update sometime, and not seemed as good as ever. The layout has been reworked, but eyes are about to fall out, and I have the graphic artist munchies. Art is like drugs yo, only good for you. Maybe it's just me, I don't know right now. I do know that now it's all purple and tealish and stuff, so it's all good.
So, the big show is in three days, and I don't know what to do with myself. I'm running out of time to have things done, and I'm hoping I pull together long enough to crank it all out. Guess I ought to say that I'm seeing Good Charlotte on Friday night. Should be an experience to write about.
School sucks, but you already knew that. I'm moving back home for the sake of my sanity. I can't live up here anymore, I just can't do it. And then there is all the RP stuff. Shall we count how many journals I have? Spread across three sites, I have: 8 Must Be Pop journals, 3 Fake Reality journals, 1 Idoless Punks journal, and 2 personal journals. I've lost my mind. That's 14 total that I write in and update. The challenge is, how many do you know that are actually me?
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| New Fic! |
[16 Oct 2003|05:16am] |
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Title: Shameless Information
Part: 1/1
Author/Pseudonym: DazWolf
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I don't own them, don't know them, never said any of this
is true. No harm is meant, and no profit is made.
Fandom: SR-71
Pairing: Mitch Allan/?
Summary: Mitch comes home to find someone waiting for him.
Warnings: *Actual* smut. Don't blame me, blame the evil little muse
who calls himself 'Aaron.'
Notes: Taken from the journal of m_allan_sr71 (aka Mitch Allan).
( Shameless Information )
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| Story Time w/ Pictures! |
[09 Sep 2003|08:31am] |
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Yeah, okay, I don't usually do this, but after messing with ideas for the past two days, this begs to be written and a few things beg to be shown off.
I finally got around to 'drawing' again, though I hate doing CG art because I've just got this really crappy mouse, so everything takes forever. Someone told me to draw something on this BBS board two nights ago, and I thought I'd give it a go. Heaven forbid that my coloring could have been any worse. I should have just left this as a black and white and walked away, but...ew...
( Out of Reach )
No one even comments on my stuff over there...it's very discouraging. Anyway, yesterday while my connection and my roommate were warring over if I could get on the net or not, I was listening to my Win Media Player and started messing with the little Randomizations that you can watch, whatever they're called. There is one titled "My Tornado is Resting," and after watching it go around for an hour I decided to get artistic. I hopped into Photoshop and recreated a screen shot. The original that I made is the neon green/white one that you'll see later.
After tweeking with filters and other lovely Photoshop things, a friend told me I should draw another picture to put over the tornado thing because 'it looked magical.' It took forever and a day, but I came up with some line art for a couple role play characters over at Must Be Pop, though this is their furry side.
( White on Black )
I was pleased with myself, but I thought that since what had put me in the slump in the first place was coloring, I decided to ditch the tornado thing and just go back and color the two wuffies. For my own clearification, the one one the left is Aaron Zilch, and the one on the right is Mitch Allan. This is the second time I've messed with Mitch, you can see the first one with Phoenix if you scan back in my posts. I think I like this version better, just because.
( The Boys of Summer )
After finishing the awesome coloring job, there was only one thing left to do, and that was to put it back on my original tornado background that I'd done in the first place. All in all, this weeks 'Boredom Project' lasted about fourteen hours, but it's done and great all in time for 'Mitch's' 100th post and 4 month anniversery. Don't you love gift pics?
( The Hunter's Moon )
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[28 Aug 2003|01:36am] |
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I am alive, really truly I am...I guess it just looks like I'm dead because I never tear enough time away from MBP to update my personal journal. Yes, I'm a slacker, I admit it.
I went home again, I've been doing that a lot lately. I've seen family, I've seen the family friends, and even made the mistake of getting drunk this last time. What can I say, Mum and Da sitting right there, and Da's friend the birthday boy thought it would be a grand idea. Yeah, I think we were all a bit fuzzy that night.
Monday night I got to go out with my best buddy to go hang out at the Shakespearian Festival. Yes, my home town is speacial, they're still gloating that we won a Tony three years ago for regional threater. Of course, the quality hasn't gone down at all. We went to see Much Ado About Nothing, and I don't think I've ever laughed so hard. I studdied the play for three years, so I know it well, and it was great seeing how it was done.
I got back later then I had planned and completely missed my first class of the Fall semester. I'm not going to talk any more about school, I'm not doing good in it, and things are looking bleak. I'm afraid that I'm bound to be stuck behind some greasy grill for the rest of my life because my talents are unnoticed by the greater population. My doomed life...
So, other than that, it's life as usual. Nothing ever changes, ya know?
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) almightyfroggie fired these up...here we go.
1) Have a hammer. Whaddya wanna do with it?
I'm going to kill a friend's computer. XP is an evil thing, and it keeps shutting them down in the middle of our RP sessions.
2) Where is Bin Laden hiding?
In the pits of hell where he belongs...Well, alright maybe not. I don't know. Our Intelligence Services have been rather vague, but I imagine I could find him if they wanted ;)
3) Dumbest thing you've ever done?
Ermmm....hmmm...Probably thinking I could actually be someone who I wasn't. I won't go into details because the ones that know about it now are the only ones that need to know. Yeah, I lied through my teeth and kept it up for years, but it eats at you after a while...
4) What item could you not live without? (Please don't say something ultra-sensible, like water, or air - it's too late for sane-ness)
Music...My world would mean absolutely nothing without it, and any of my friends can testify to that...
5) Say you could have the one thing you desire the most, but you can't tell anyone about it. Would you rather have it, or go without? (ooh! Thought-provoking at last!!)
I would rather have it. I can live in a world alone and be happy with no one else knowing anyway, I don't see why this would be any different. I know that sounds horrible, but I'm terribly anti-social. So is my life...heh.
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| Questions A-Go-Go... |
[12 Aug 2003|03:20pm] |
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Anyone here to be interviewed?
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.
Questions courtesy ofssgypsy
1. Why do the good girls always want the bad boys?
A very interesting question, and it may have just become clearer to me after having to think about it. It's common knowledge, at least to me, that you can't change a man, he got to do it on his own, and that means that most likely, the bad boys are going to stay bad. Perhaps it's some inner trigger that all the good girls wanna be bad too. Hell, if I wasn't so bad already, I'd go for that explaination...;D
2. Is love a catastrophe?
In the fondest sense of the word. I have never heard of the 'Perfect Relationship', and I'm convinced that it doesn't exsist. Since it's 'love' that leads up to these things, I seriously think that even if it's not a fleeting emotion, people just don't get along with it very well. I draw it down to people, because it is said that we are social creatures, and that's right up to a point. It's right up until the point where they figure out that we're animals too, and living with someone is a lot different from messing around. So yes, it is, and one hell of a mess at that.
3. Do you think freedom is just a state of mind?
Absolutely...I think of it in the way that we are all slaves by our own means. A man in a cubical for eight hours a day isn't free, he's bound by the laws and rules of the being that put him in the cubical. He could feel like a complete prisoner, but he would simply be told that he has his 'freedom.' Likewise, a convict could be locked up for life, worst treatment possible, but he could be free as a bird in his mind. It's all in the perception.
4. Are you someone who likes to give good advice?
I am when I'm asked for it. I've learned the hard way about chirping up where I don't belong, and it wasn't all that pleasent. Remember, never *think* that you know everything, because you never really do.
5. Is space travel in your opinion worth the while?
If we actually found something worthwhile, then maybe it would justify it all. I know they want to explore and learn, but has it actually done something usefull for the human race besides make us dream of living out there some day? The one reason I can come up for to make it all alright is the amount of jobs that researching, developement and building have created. I wouldn't be here now without it, because my father helps build the parts and mix the fuel that gets the rockets up there.
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[31 Jul 2003|07:45am] |
Stealing this from Linda...who stole it from someone, who probably stole it from someone and so on and so forth.
 </p>"Let me be the one you call. If you jump I will break your fall"</p>You are a tortured soul, sad and lost in a world which is truly cruel and loveless in your eyes. Hang in there, there are blessed moments of silence and comfort that can come around, let yourself be loved and never forget to keep loving.</p>
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[31 Jul 2003|07:17am] |
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I now have something to blame all the fictional deaths on! Yes, his name is Norritt, and he's evil...He just doesn't look it in this pic. He would be my evil muse if ever I had one, and now I think I can move on. I've been working on more promising things over the night ;)
( Norritt: The Evil Muse )
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| Nothing For Now |
[29 Jul 2003|02:21am] |
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Alright, when I went home one of my friends dropped off an insert from the local paper down there that had one of our local bands on the cover. Even though it was just a little local thing, it was cool to see that they were actually getting somewhere. I'm going to type up the article since it really isn't that long. After many hours of searching around, I couldn't find any actual pictures put up, and I've already yelled at them to get their site finished, however I did find them on MP3.com which hosts three of their rereleased songs:
Nothing For Now @ MP3.com
And for those wondering, I went to school with them. I'm friends with the lead singer (Dan) and the drummer (Breyde), and used to hang out with them all the time. I was instudio with them during the recording of their original CD, 'Means To An End.' This is that good 'Indy Punk Rock' flavor that you just don't usually hear from out here.
( Nothing For Now: Nothing holding back Cedar punk band... )
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| Home again... |
[26 Jul 2003|03:03am] |
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Here's the story of the week. Mom was brought up to Murray (a small town just South of Salt Lake) for back and neck surgery two days ago. I had known that she was having problems, but not that badly. I went to go see her Thursday morning to find that what started as a pinched nerve had actually been a shattered vertebrae in her lower neck. Eight pieces was what I was told that they put back together. My dad showed up a little bit later, minus the one person I thought would be begging to come up to see me, even if it was a side reason.
Dad didn't say anything about it, but I took off for the new apartment, and found my brother sitting outside my door out in the hallway. I think Dad should have said something, because I would have gone back sooner had I known. He told me that Dad had decided to leave me to watch my brother while he was taking Mom home later that afternoon, but he never said he was taking everyone back. Needless to say, Mom and Dad went home, and Randy was stuck trying to steal my bed because we had people already crashed out on the couches.
I had to bring him back home, so here I am again. It's good to see old friends and stuff again, but it wasn't that long ago that I was here last, like two weeks ago. One of them decided to take me out for a burger tonight, but my car had other ideas. After three hours, a new alternator, two new belts and $100, I was back on the road again with my Dad being totally pissed for the rest of the night. He said that it was just because of the car being old, but I know it messes with him. Oh well, wasn't me that made the stupid thing lock up and explode.
Alright, I'm starting to fall asleep, so I'm out of here. Hope things are going better for everyone else...;)
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You are a dark writer. A fierce and loyal follower
of Poe and the other gothic authors, you LOVE
to instill a sense of revulsion and somewhat
fear in your readers. You love to poke their
brains with logic dealing with the darker side
of the human mind and character. Truly
surprising and a true individual, you'll do
ANYTHING to create a scene. :)
What's YOUR Writing Style?
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As if I didn't know that one already...hehe, no worries, it's all good! I'm about halfway moved in, counting all the junk that's in the car right now, but it's raining so I can't do anything about it at the moment. Two days to go and then I'm supposed to be totally done. I've got a surprise coming up shortly because I dusted off my laptop and decided to get back to work. Part 2 of Shadows Creeping is almost ready for posting!!!!
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| Another story... |
[17 Jul 2003|09:06am] |
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...And this one isn't nearly as dark as the last. Depending on how you look at it, this could be a lead in to 'Hard to Breathe,' though it really depends on what you got out of it. Short, no deaths, more observations though. Enjoy...
Title: The Boys of Summer
Disclaimer: I’m still in the habit of not saying any names, but the deal is the same. Don’t own them, don’t know them, don’t want it to happen. 'The Boys of Summer' belongs to Don Henley, though only the name is mentioned.
Summary: A mistake, a confession, and the beginning of a journey. (Possible pre to ‘Hard to Breathe’)
Pairing: Implied D/D
Genre: Angst
Rating: G (This is as mild as it gets folks ;) )
Chapters: 1/1
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( The Boys of Summer )
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[15 Jul 2003|07:13am] |
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Title: Hard To Breathe
Disclaimer: Since I don’t really mention names at all, I can’t say I own anyone. As for what is implied, it didn’t happen, I don’t want it to happen, and God forbid anyone take this seriously. No harm is intended. Song ‘Harder to Breathe’ belongs to the guys of Maroon 5. Story based loosely on song ‘My Bloody Valentine’ by Good Charlotte.
Summary: When the madness takes control, life takes on a new meaning.
Pairing: Implied D/D
Genre: Supreme Angst
Rating: R for one swear word, and murder.
Chapters: 1/1
WARNING: I cannot stress this enough. As some of you already know, I am very dark when it comes to writing much of my fiction, and this is no different. This is probably my most bitter, strongest piece I have ever done, however it does deal with murder and what effect jealousy can drive people to. Please, use common sense. I’m not out to save the world or anything, but I don’t want to get flamed for something you think you didn’t see coming.
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( Hard To Breathe )
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[13 Jul 2003|03:01am] |
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I've come to the conclusion that these aren't drawings, they aren't doodles, and they are certainly somewhere beyond normality. Someone is feeling a lot of strife in a storyline right now because their significant other is out of the story for another two weeks. This is the usual 'pat on the back, everything will be alright' picture that I haven't been able to get out in quite a while. Messing with my style again, it is a challenge to make non-humans look like actual people. I lost track of how long I spent on this, but it was every moment I could spare all day long. I like how it turned out though :D.
( For Phoenix and Mitch: Starry Starry Night )
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[12 Jul 2003|12:27am] |
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I just got back from a little club/music shop in downtown Provo, and I can hear a thing. Went down to see a few 'local' bands play, with Vadict headlining. Don't feel bad if you don't know who they are, not many people do. It was cool, got to hang backstage with the guys, listened to a couple failed attempts at new songs, and just generally rocked out. They were giving me funny looks when I showed up because I'm walking the fine line between looking rock or looking punk, and all of these were metal bands. Then some guy from my home town showed up with a video camera for a DVD one of the bands is working on, and went "Oh, I remember you from Power 91!" Once they figured out I was a DJ, everything was cool. I could probably go on about them until I'm blue in the face, but I won't. I know you people don't want me to ramble on too long. ;D Oh yeah, I get to move into the *remodeled* apartments this coming Wednesday, so that should be cool!
Rawk! hehe
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